Really haven't posted in a long long time, hadn't even logged in for ever. Doubt anyone is even around to read this anymore anyways. Oh well. Gwar is awesome. I love Gwar. I should make a voice post. I just checked my bank account balance, 500 dollars, looks like my paycheck went through. This means I can pay my phone bill, pay back my mom, and get parts for my paintball gun. Maybe a new barrel. Also this saturday I am going paintballing, which I am quite pumped about. Haven't been in about a year.

mah, this sucks

made a voice post tonight
not long enough
don't get enough time
machine cut me off
mid word
mid thought
should make another one
ones enough for tonight
theres assholes on tv
one has a guitar
dickheads
now theres a jack ass with a double necked guitar, 6 and 12 string probably
i like 7 string
dudes from korn use 7 string
i bought a book of tabs
can't play half the shit cause mines 6 string
i should start playing guitar again
i would write some trippy shit i'm telling you
euphoria
how does one describe a euphoric experience
whats sensations, feelings, smells, tastes, colors, textures and sights make something euphoric
different for everyone i guess
i should do homework
i should do a lot of shit
i think i want to read
i want another cup of coffee
i want to listen to my entire music library
just in one sitting
read the rest of atlas shrugged in one sitting
now that would be a fucking feat
i want to read harry potter
i liked those books
the 5th one
i want to read that one again
the one where sirius dies
should put a spoiler warning on that
hahahaha
this is going to be a long fucking post
about absolutly nothing to
i should check out the Tool site
check for news
check for concerts
i'm going to get my headphones
and coffee

music was loud with headphones
i turned it down
no punctuation
no capitalization
plenty of line breaks though
i should just start typing as it comes out
shouldn't even make spelling or typo corrections
girls gone wild infomercial
piece of shit
girls gone wild sucks
its too late to go to sleep now
if i do i won't be able to get up and will probably sleep through first and possibly second block
what would happen if i were to just pass out
and go into a coma
people would be sad
but
would it be like i died
would people sit by me
how long would people visit for until they just moved on
would they wait for me or just give up
wait for me to wake up again
would i wake up again
i hope they wouldn't pray for me
don't believe in that
and if there is a god i doubt that it gives a shit about the woes of a couple of mortals
on a shithole planet like this
i'm sure it has other experiments to worry about that are going much better than this
i put on cnn
with closed captioning
i think i should put on a movie soon
no
just more music
music everywhere
i feel good
happy
pleasent
calm
at peace
loved
loving
people care too much sometimes
say things they shouldn't say
about business that isn't theirs
they see something wrong and try to help
but they just end up fucking it up
piss off already
don't ask me about my shit
my baggage
you have no fucking right to know
you don't know me
and i don't know you
i know you care
or at least feel that you do
or pretend to
you're human
but fucking think
"no more of that"
"that's stupid"
"that's bad"
fuck off
think i don't know that
you think i don't fucking know what i did
do you know why i did it
didn't think so
asshole
i'll deal with my shit in my way
if i wanted you to know what was going on i'd tell you
otherwise keep you're fucking mouth shut
you just don't understand
you can't
you haven't done
what i've done
you haven't felt
what i've felt
i hope you don't
it fucking sucks
believe me
trust me
i am dealing with
i will be alright
so fuck off already
do i ask you about every fucking little thing
no
am i in your inner circle
no
so why the fuck should i let you in mine
my business is my business
i don't want to know about your problems
sorry
i have enough to deal with
besides
i don't fucking know you
wouldn't be the best person to tell
but if you really need it
have no one else to turn to
to talk to
to trust
then that's different
just don't expect me to spill my heart after
i don't know you
and don't particularly want to
you're cool and all
but i have a couple of best friends already
and no one is going to fucking take their places
their irreplaceable
they've put up with so much of my shit its ridiculous
the fact that they have and still do proves so much
shows so much
tells me so much
my relationship with them is unconditional
sure
i get upset with them
i may even get mad with them eventually
doesn't matter
i love them
they mean so much to me
they're a part of me
they've helped me through so much
we've been through so much together
had a lot of good times
but also shed some tears
said some regretable words
doubted some things
and the road ahead has some rough patches
so what
they all do
we'll make it
together we'll do it
we each walk or seperate paths but some of them run parallel
sometimes they may part
but i believe they'll come back together
we'll be alright
we'll cry
we'll laugh
we'll yell
we'll argue
we'll misunderstand
we may not understand at all
oh well
that's life
that's the human condition
imperfection
we'll help eachother

I haven't posted in forever. So much has happened since my last post. Apparently I have a plus account now. That's pretty neat. Expect voice posts soon. Life is pretty good. Still some issues. But there always shall be. House tonight. At my house...:D Puddin', The D, and KA. KA doesn't have a nickname at this point so I'm just using her initials.

I changed my layout. Was sick of the old one. Too much pink.

Klissaye is evil. She tagged me. Now I have to do stuff. But she's not really evil. Cause I was hoping I would be one of the people she tagged. This is hard.

INSTRUCTIONS
The tagged victims have to come up with eight different points of his/her perfect lover.
1.Have to be accepting of everyone. Can't discriminate based on anything superficial.
2.Similiar interests. And if they don't enjoy one of the things that I do they can't make fun of me for it. Just not cool.
3.Willing to try new things. Foods, games, activities.
4.They can't insult me about things. Individuality is awesome. Making fun is different. That's just in good fun but you have to know that nothing is meant by it.
5.Have to be a romantic.
6.Can't force anything on me. I'll be willing to try most things. Just maybe not right away.
7.They don't absolutly have to be, but it would be nice if they were a gamer.
8.Wanting kids is a must. And willing to adopt. You know, just in case.

Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
Female. I like boys too. But I want to end up with a nice gal.

Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
Everyone on my friends list. There should be less than 8 though.

If you are tagged the second time, there's no need to do this AGAIN.
Lastly, most importantly, HAVE. FUN. DOING. IT.

I have not updated in forever.
I miss two people right now. One of them is on a family trip. I think she gets back soon. The other has just stopped talking to me.....
MSI TOMMORROW!!!! HOMYGOSH!!! I hope to go. I hope there's still tickets left.
Was reading old journal entries. Not here. The journal I keep to myself. I don't like reading old ones in there. I have that weird feeling again. Haven't had it in quite awhile. It scares me.

Current Mood: scared

Right now, I feel freakin' sick. Not physically. But rather with my self. I've lost control of a habit again. And I don't really care. But I do. I want to stop. But I can't. What I need is for someone to tear me away from this. An ultimatum. There's no one in my life that can do that right now. Or they won't. There's a couple of people who I would allow to do that. But the ones who would I wouldn't allow. And the ones who I would allow wouldn't. If that makes any sense. I don't mind continuing. Just not right now. And not at the rate which scares me. Then there's another thing. A thing I can't tell anyone about yet. Just not ready to take another chance yet. Too soon. Too soon for others as well. That I know. Thats bothering me abit. But not much. Something I do want. But that I'm not ready to make a move on. Not for awhile. I am the black piece. White doesn't even know that they're playing. There was another game not too long ago. Stalemate. That game still resides in my memory and I'm still not done with it. Will be awhile before I am done. No regrets. Contact is nice. I do like it. Though only with some. Some know the absolute best moments as well. Suspicions of another game. Though I may be crazy, pieces aren't assigned yet. We're both black though, most likely. Not really a game I want to be involved in anyways. Don't like those games.

Current Mood: lonely

Lots has happened. Far too much to say. Hung out with people even more than usual. I know didn't think it was possible. Joined yet another web community, Casmus at www.vampirefreaks.com. According to everyone on there I am cute. Neat. Lent is going well. I added to green tea to the list of things to drink. It's good for me and I really can't go without it. I probably drink more tea than anything. Master and Commander really is an amazing book. I wish that I would just read it, but I'm a bum face.:P

This weekend, was amazing. Particularly Saturday. Went out to Richmond for the day with Jacky, Cindi, and Sara. Had loads of fun even though we did get bored and just came back early. Then that evening I hung out with Cindi then later Susie as well at Cindi's house. Had the best chocolate cake ever. OH! And in Richmond we all bought really cute stationery so we can send letters to each other. We're supposed to send one letter a week and on Wednesdays. Pretty spiffy. I also got a new pencil case, a Beethoven CD (which I left at Cindi's XP), some candy, and probably a couple of other things which I am forgetting.

Sara's family purchased a new computer. I may try to pull together some cash so as to purchase the old one from them. It's a decent enough computer it's just full of viruses. Which means it'll require a complete HDD wipe. Fun fun fun.

-Yogurt,Yarn,Yarnizzy out.

Such a flurry of emotions are happening within me right now. So much good bad and amazing has happened within the last 24 hours. I have heard words that have made my heart snap, made me fall to the floor in tears, made me never want to leave a friends side, made me love more than I ever thought possible, made me want to put an axe through someone's skull, made me want to abandon an signifigant figure within my life, made me want to remain with someone else forever more than ever, made me believe something more than I've ever believed something before, made me smile when that's absolutly exactly what I needed at that moment.

Well quite a bit has happened in the past month. Our 05/06 musical started and ended on extremely succesful, entertaining and hilarious grounds. Hung with friends more than ever, and at least temporarily resolved an issue full of much angst, drama and frustration. Looking forward to spring break for there shall be much partying and hanging with friends. OMG!! Why can I think of nothing to write!? Argh! If anyone can think of what else I can write please leave it in my comments.

OMG FINISHED MY FINALS THE SEMESTER IS OVER!!!! I is fairly sure I passed my english. nervous about my physics though. Really don't want to do either course over again. Totally hanging out with Puddin' today. Gonna be funs. SAKURA IS RIGHT!!! WE MUST HAVE A PIC-I-NIC!!! I SAY THURSDAY AFTER BEAUTY AND THE BEAST!!! If we have time.

My shirt is rather tight.

Kinda hungry.

How do I have nothing to rant about. Rather disappointed in myself.

OMG!!! Yesterday we went to a used book store and I spent like twenty dollars and I got 5/6 books. Crazy. Not sure if it was 5 or 6 cause I think I bought 6 but I get home and there's only 5 so I'm all....WTEFF Mate....Yeah, so anyways got some cool books for cheap. So happy. Apparently more people are going today. Crazy. PIC-INIC BASKET!!!!

Yarn out!

hokay, so.
I has uploaded all of my pics. Yes I know they're the same as the old journal but they're just that cool heh heh. Anyways. Friday, I sick. Ugh. Gross. Yeah. BUT I GO TO SCHOOL THEN MOVIE. Movie was "Memoirs of a Geisha." So awesome. No LOTR but still cool. Oh. I went with Cherry Blossom and Donut Puddin' as well. There was supposed to be more of us but they were incapable of talking cause they suck. There. I said it. Ugh. I feel kinda gross. Maybe I should go and cleanse myself within the bathroom. That would be a good idea. But the homework. Mind you I am supposed to be doing my homework right now. Not posting to LJ. Wow. I love how this post really doesn't have much substance and I'm just ranting. Hmmmm. HEY!! Did you know that after penguins mate they return to Africa until they need to mate again and go back to the south pole. It's true. Penguins spend 67.39% of their lives hunting lions and herding elephants while riding on the backs of hyenas. I swear it's true. Another thing I figured out. The movie "The Forgotten". It's not really about a mother's love for her child. It's about how she really did have coffee when she was talking to her shrink. Can't believe no one realized that before. IT ALL COMES BACK TO THE COFFEE. My juice is dry. Like its liquid and wet but it makes my mouth feel dry. Even when there is juice in there. 0.o weird. hmmmmmmmmm. Anything else I can rant about. OF COURSE THERE IS!!! The colour scheme of my journal. Yes I hate it. I just haven't had time to change it. And my mother's computer monitor is messed up so all the colours are different. Like green. It's brown. Weird, I know. Kay. I think that's enough ranting for now. I guess. OMG TODAY IS NEW WEBCOMIC DAY WHEN EVERYTHING UPDATES! OMG I HAVEN'T READ REAL LIFE IN LIKE FOREVER!! OMGOSH-NESS!!! There. I said it. All of it.

-YARN OUT!!

This morning I decided to change my passwords and then I couldn't remember any of them....I know. It sucks. I ended up having to creat all new accounts for Gmail Hotmail and my beautiful Live Journal of course. UGH! So frustrating. The crappy part is I'm not even done yet. I still have to gain back all of my MSN contacts and LJ friends. Oh so annoying. Other than that this day has been oh so awesome. Me and Puddin' hung out today after school and watched Sex and the City then started to watch Rush Hour 2 when her mother beckoned her to return to her place of dwelling. It was just so awesome that I wished that it would of never ended but alas it did. As all good things must come to an end so must our evening together. I actually hadn't even updated my old account in so long that now I have lots to talk about. Wow. I guess like awhile ago, Cherry Blossom, Puddin' and I had our own little movie night in which we had pizza and watched movies. We watched "The Exorcism of Emily Rose" which wasn't scary, just really cool, and Saw. Saw was REALLY gross with some scary bits...which had all of us huddled together on the couch...quiet you...unfortunatly we were unable to finish it on that evening so they came back over the next monday after school and finished it. The rest of that week Cherry Blossom stayed home with the sick and I don't think much else happened, other than me losing 3 hours of sleep that is. The next monday, I guess that would of been yesterday, about 8 of us went for bubble tea which was full of much bemusment. A couple of the highlights would have to be Bean pressuring Cherry Blossom for sexual favours while Corey macked on Cherry Blossom as well. She had a rather eventful "first day back to school after you've been sick for a week." ALSO WORTH MENTIONING Cherry Blossom's outfit of yesterday. It was a black top which had one long sleeve while the other side was shoulderless and sleeveless. She was then wearing one leg warmer on her bare arm, very cool, and cargo/camo pants along with her "GENIUS BOOTS!!!!!!!!" All in all it was very fitting of her personality and quite cute. Thumbs up Cherry Blossom. You've got my vote XD.


THIS BE YARN/YOGURT/YARNIZZY/(whatever other nickname for me I can't think of) SIGNING OUT!!!